i think i am damn loser-ish. going into the eighth month in my new school already yet whenever i enter the cafe after school i am still lost
lost not in the sense that i don know where am i but lost in the sense that i cannot really find where can i settle down in the canteen in Zhonghua i can always and i mean ALWAYS find someone to sit down with after school after buying food but i can't say the same here in Saint Andrews
maybe it is because everyone end at different timing maybe it is just everyone is busy with every other thing maybe just maybe maybe it is just different and i have to accept it maybe it is because i have such good schoolmates in secondary school that i expect too much in JC
lost also in the sense that i ahave not find my footing in this college (i have a faint impression i read this in someone's blog) not my CCA not my CLASS not my .........
if you tell me to look back and say that if you could choose another JC now will you? i guess my answer will most likely be a yes for now. i don't really have something to hold me back tightly
i think most of my time in JAE's Saint Andrews is with the ODAC-er and today it is the J2 (07/08 batch) farewell [To Ariel: i guess today event was quite a success. no worry okay] i think i am going to miss them quite alot though we don really really know them very very well but yar i think we will still miss them very much my mentor the you yuen ren[ i still kept his 7-up from the OEC debt, and i think i will keep his mackerel for a long time to come too] my advisor and many many more that has in a way teach me something along the way [eg. yuzhen who is always a ball-like thing in group picture(water melon and a rugby ball?)] you all made me realise everything has a purpose you made me realised why people do certain things in my previous camps you made me realised that if you need to be the change that you hope to see
Thank You.
then come the current batch of ODAC-er hope you will be my footing hope i wil have beautiful memory of you all when i leave SA i can only hope
got back from OCIP camp yesterday woah it has been a long time since i have gone through this kind of camp. i remember the last time i went through this kind of camp was back in secondary 2 when i was in ATC
got back with aches everywhere and was tire like ... nothing can describe
but i think this time round i gone into the camp with a very different attitude altogether last time when i was in sec 2. when i enter the camp, all that was in my mind was to out shine the entire camp and get best camper and bring glory to my school learning was only a by product of the camp. i will just carry out all the activity and try to be as enthu and take as much initative as possible. whenever people ask to get things donw i will be the first to be there.
below is what i felt in OCIP selection camp 2008 i am not going to describe what i have gone through during the camp but what i feel about the camp. what happen during the camp can be found i think from any other person's blog that gone through the camp.
but now, when i enter the OCIP camp, i enter it with a very different attitude. my piority is to learn stuff though the camp, how to carry actuvities, how to handle people, how to motivate people. i didnt enter to be the "perfect camper" in mind. maybe through out the 2 and a half year after ATC i have change my attitude towards this kind of camps. i have been through alot of camps in my life be it in primary school secondary school or even in JC. every camp has its own objective, has its own different composure of leaders. i myself has also been in the planning of some of this kind of "endurance camp" and also "orientation camp". but in every camp, there is one cammon theme and their ultimate goal coincide. it is to let the campers learn as much as possible through the camp and that they can bond with the other campers. isnt this the ultimate goal?
with this in mind, thats the whole point of debrief or reflections. it is to let the campers think through their activities for the day and reflect upon what they have learn from the day or from the activity. i think debrief is also for the organiser of the camp to learn something from the campers, they could learn how to more effectively organise and if they were to plan for another camp, they can apply this in it.
personnally i think that the OCIP camp was a success in general but i think it can still be improve on. like the debrief part. i know why thie do not want a informal "debrief" session. it is because they predict that everyone will just sit there and keep quite. so their debrief is in the form of a force answer type. but i think this is one way of debrief but i dont think it is very effective, those kind of "free answer" type through informal debrief is better for the ocip campers as i think they are more inclined to speak up. speak up about what they do not agree about the camp.
i think a leader is one that no only can lead and inspire the team, but also are problems solver, meaning they know what is right and wrong and if things are wrong, they have the courage to speak up to change things. that to me then is the "REAL leaders" not those people that has lots of FAKE enthusiasm and intiative during camps then after camp they are nothing. leadership is shown throughout your life not through the camp only.
PS i have completed the 2nd endurance run in my life. 1st one i didnt complete. it is a achievement on my part. and i think the 2nd endurance is much longer than the first.
PW is a major headache! just finished PART of the DRAFT of the WR took 4 person about 3 hours to like complete a very very simplified DRAFT of a WR! tsk
anyway i almost got back all my results already really very dissappointed with all my results except maths and chinese cause i know i am capable of achieving much more than the result this time round but i didnt do it then i start to doubt myself isit because i am not hardworking enough? or isit that i dont understand the concept? or isit PW that has taken up so much of my time that i have not much left for my other subjects? (but i think this is just an excuse i give myself to make me not so guilty of the results) i shall MUG all the way till promos no going out and stuff! NO MORE!
okay enough of those saddening stuff let me talk about ODAC i did a 6 km run on wed with the rest of the ODAC-ers we ran to bishan park from SAJC then back again before that i did a mini endurance run during PE with kenny(supposed to be non stop for 15 mins at your own pace with a partner) we ran 7 rounds round the track in 15 mins that means i ran about 8km that day WOAH! achievement! after that we did storecheck and i was incharge(cause i am the QM) realised that lots of stuff is like in bad condition in the store tsk tsk!!(to those J2s that is reading) haha joking la i think most of the tent is we make spoil one hahhaha we storecheck till super late but it is good la cause we roughly know where is what already super super hungry after that so we went to eat at the shop opposite the indian temple and the HC people are super BRIGHT haha
did another 2.4km run during training today then we play frisbee and chukeball i guess today training is okay la cause alot of people didnt come then in between games we have like lots of spare time then nothing to do
hope the i can survive the SAFRA BAY RUN (10km) cause i pay S$10 already!
pictures really says a thousand words huh? went to sentosa with all this guys? looks a little gay ah? but i think it is quite fun lor to have an outing wioth ALL the guys cause we does not have restriction unlike when there is like girls around so we can like talk about really "funny" stuff the outing was great we us trying to play 3 sports at the same time namely fresbie, scoccer and volleyball then after taht we ended up playing "American football" with a group of HCI's J2 they are of good sport la casue they didnt like try to injure us cause they were like bigger size really enjoy the game good workout we play 2 times with break in between hahah and i realised EVERYTHING in sentosa is SUPER EX! price inelastic according to Rui Hong and the guys really likes their body cause they all strip except me oswell and lip chiau haha
this is the picture of us in the monorail
after that i went to KOVAN to meet my sec 4 NPCC squadmates they are celebrating mabel's and samuel tan's birthday!! cool huh! and mabel slim down OH GOSH! could not play pool with them cause i have tuition at 730 but nevertheless i enjoy their company and it is great to see all of them again after so long and i feel everyone have grown up GREAT!
hmmm... PW is sucking life out of keng chong! hmm... hope our pilot study works out alright and the kids can co-operate with us and the "matron" could actually say lots and lots of stuff during the interview
anyway i found a new/cooler/faster way of going home from SA take bus at the bus stop at SAJS bus stop then go eunos then go home! amazing huh require only about 30-45 mins only le! hmm way faster then the normal 1 hour plus on the normal bus ride
and this few days my house is like super warm la those stuffy kind of warm today was alright but past few day ah... wah
okay updates on my CCA i am in EXCO in ODAC not what i had expected but anyhow i think its okay la just make the best out of it i will come to like it one that me... cool name too haha i also respect the people in EXCO too hope will be a great year ahead train up my fitness and all so i wont end up dead like a salted fish in NS
played basketball with zhanpeng they all at the church near zhonghua then later move to zuyao's house i think basketball is fun! and a great workout too! gonna play more basketball in the future playing basketball with zhonghua people just remind me about the time when 2e4 people always go to terence's house to play basketball we will always go in a big group almost all of the guys in our class will go hai... why isnt JC like this? where is all the bond? isit just me or is time a factor? or am i too demanding cause i got a great class in zhonghua?
nowadays after classes, my classmates will all go their own way not like last time where all the 2e4/4e1 people will go hang out together/have lunch or at the very least go OUT OF the school together NOW i haven go anywhere with my new classmates yet
after school in SAJC if you stayed at the cafe you will realise that there is either very few people there or the people there are people that you do not know at all unlike in zhonghua where everyone knows everyone after school there will always be programme for us to go be it go friends' house or play ball NOW after school i will stone in school waiting to go for tuition
hmmm i MISS zhonghua but i guess i have to move on i am in JUNIOR COLLEGE already not a SECONDARY school anymore time to GROW up time cant and cannot stand still. you know?
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting Could it be that we have been this way before I know you don't think that I am trying I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Your impossible to find
This is not what I intended I always swore to you i'd never fall apart You always thought that I was stronger I may of failed But I have loved you from the start Ohhhh
But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find It's impossible
So breathe in so deep Breathe me in I'm yours to keep And hold onto your words Cause talk is cheap And remember me tonight When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Your impossible to find
i like this song! not that it tops 987 top 20 is cause i like the tune stuck in my head for alot of days already haha but the feel of this song is like Vulnerable by the same artist.
Ng Keng Chong
Guy
15041991
i like Green
but not green hat
i like No. 02
Like green and grey combination
Like Green and Black combination (like the H2 Physic TYS with solution!)
haha! level 22 le!! achievement!! so difficult! 5 more to go!
pictures really says a thousand words huh?
can you all spot me?!